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This blog of my journal writing online is the real me or at least the emotional and contemplative tortured artist and hopeful of love hopeless romantic side of myself. Hopefully I do not scare away any of the various girls I meet who I like away from wanting to get together to get to know me because she saw and read about how I was so up front with opening up about myself and sharing my skeletons in the closet if you will or my various fears, failures, and frustrations out in the open to the public at large online.  This is who I am or at least a part of what makes up myself as a man always evolving and trying my best to succeed with others and fit in better if at all possible.  I share close to everything about myself not to exploit myself or show off to others. I do it because I always have been emotional, self aware, and fallen deeply in love easily in my life.

If you are a girl who thought I was a cool or a sexy guy you met but then as a woman decide against possibly dating me or getting to know me because of my art or my blog journals being to dark moody intense or just kind of rather a little strange to you, then that is the way it will be. A leopard can't easily change or hide it's spots. I can play many roles for what place or activity I am at and how socially appropriate it is to be able to feel free to express myself and who I am without fronting or hiding most of myself to be more formal or professional.  This blog website lets me be myself and my obsessions dreams goals and thought process without worrying about trying to please someone else around me by mirroring their behaviors or personal beliefs and views they would expect me to follow or play favorably when around them or in more conservative expectations of a formal professional setting like a workplace.  

Maybe my artwork being dark or intense or my blogs being so truthful and raw will displease or not impress a very sexy woman I met or spoke to recently. Who I really am in some ways would come out of the wood work sooner or later if you got to know me and see how vulnerable and sensitive to things I really am deep down on the inside even if try to fit in with everyone as an average joe regular guy much of my day and life among others.  

If you thought I was cool when you met me face to face or online before I ask and hope that you don't judge me negatively or in harsh view for sharing with anyone and everyone myself and part of who I am.  I don't play players games where I tell people what they want to hear for my own self gain. I hope to have more adventures and romances but I have to do it being comfortable as myself with who I am in my own shoes and identity even if it is not the ideal type or mold of what a hot babe would be thinking she wants.  Whatever, this is me, not all of me, or everything about me, or behaviors I have, but a part of me. Different groups require a different set of behaviors and ethics, I act differently around a hot girl I meet and approach than I do around almost everyone else. I act more like a kind role model around little kids or senior citizens than I do around some guy who is trying to act like he is really tough and to be feared by others.  Ect.