Personal Goals in life written late August 2011 part 2 an updated sequel to Personal Goals 2010
Summer is now over and Fall 2011 is just beginning. I am attending Cal State University Long Beach for my 2nd year in the teaching credential program getting my single subject in art. I have my own studio apartment near campus and my cat Jasper Johns is with me to keep me good company. I have 4 websites going all at the same time. Artistangst.com this website which is my artist site, narrativeartist.weebly.com my blogging site I have a link to on this website. I also have 2 safe for kids and teenagers websites in development now. They are active but the content is not up yet on the website. I expect to have more on these kid friendly G-rated or pg rated websites in November or December. They are kidfriendlyart.com safe for kids k-to6th grade. kidfriendlyartwork.com safe for teenagers 7th to 12th grades.
I started on the road to try making a documentary film in 5 years time. I figure it will take me 4 or 5 years to get all of my footage. It would take me at least a year to edit it all together. It's a slow start but a side hobby as learning process art assignment. School and my ceramics sculpting comes first before the filmmaking.
I have always been a good collector and having my hobbies that I enjoy partaking in! The good thing is I can let go of or trade or barter many of the items or books I own and collected. The bad part is I still enjoy collecting new things and still acquire more than what I get rid of.
I want to learn more about horses first hand and not just what I read about in a library book on horses. They have various stables and horseback riding centers in the LA and Orange county area. They have theraputic riding programs for people with learning disabilies, among other problems or needs that I or others might face that riding or grooming horses is theraputic and can help me grow into a calmer happier person.
Like my personal goals 2010 page I still want to adopt kids, but have been thinking about it a lot more lately. Quite often in fact, to be honest! I like adopting cats and dogs that are 6 months old or older up to an older full grown adult and have found that choosing a pet that already has their personality and temperment has worked out well for me if the pet and I connect and become friends right away! If you adopt a kitten or a puppy you don't know if it will be very shy, really nice, very mean, or grouchy, or what personality it has yet and what it will grow up to become and act like as it matures and develops. I want to adopt babies under 1 years of age that will look like they will grow up to be very handsome looking and strong like Brad Pitt, Denzel Washington, Michael jordan, or Rob Lowe. If it's a girl I adopt I want her to be as pretty as Halle Berry or Cindy Crawford. The logic behind this is that if others think they are astonishing looking then they will have an easier life and easier time making friends and being popular because others are attracted to them and accepting of them and want to be around them. I don't want my kids to feel socially out of place like they don't fit in or have a hard time making close personal relationships easily with others especially the opposite sex. I myself am very outgoing and meet lots of people but close friends that are reliable and dates are harder for me to come by and find in my life. I know I really struggled with getting rejected by others, ignored, abused, harrassed, and picked on for much of my lifetime. I don't want my kids to be very vulnerable naive and sheltered but to have it easier than I did with their hot stuff looks opening the door for them. I have also been very amused at all the twins on campus that attend CSULB together! They are very nice people and I think twins are really cool! I want to adopt twins now! I want them to also be handsome or pretty if possible. I picked up a book I had about the siamese twins Cheng brothers from over 120 years ago in America. That got me thinking that if I could adopt a siamese twin that was in good health and and wasn't expected to die as a child I believe that I could be a good father and a good home to such a child that was up for adoption! I also want to adopt a midget, it doesn't matter if the midget is a boy or a girl or handsome or pretty. I would love all my adopted kids with great concern and care no matter if they were born with birth defects in life or if they were born great looking. Family is very important to me and what my main goal in life is right now and has been as a fantasy of mine since I was 14 or 15 years old. I do daydream about very pretty attractive girls but the marriage and kids and happy home life is the main part of the dream not just the sex. I guess I identify with wanting handsome and pretty kids that get to be treated the way I always wanted to be seen as desirable and chased after, even thought that never happens to me. The kids I want to adopt that were born siamese twins or a midget reflect how I feel like I was treated like an outcast and misfit as a tween and teenager in school, having been already treated poorly by others and by my peers I could help show lots of love, compassion and understanding and be an advocate for my kids if they had features that made them stand out and not fit in with others around them. I would not parade them around as a circus show to get attention for my own satisfaction, I would love them and raise them to be strong, good people, and follow their dreams no matter what obsticiles they face or how bad someone tries to treat them on their journey in life.
I don't plan on having these kids till I get married to miss right:who ever that will end up being?! I plan on having my pets first, my house property first, my teaching job first, a reliable car for regular daily travel and activities and a large minivan that can seat lots of people or could store my artwork to transport or carry a miniature horse in the backseat. I am looking to have a home with space for the pets and miniature horses and a large yard/backyard. I want to have a special room for storing all of my artbooks and a place to keep my sculptures in. To get a large enough property to have all of these things I don't think I could ever afford to be in the westside of LA, where I really enjoy life. In LA I enjoy the things that happen around me daily like the art house cinemas where cult movies are played and the famous film stars come to speak to the audience. On a teachers budget I don't think I can afford west LA and the lifestyle I enjoy about it. I decided I want to live in the outskirts of LA in more rural areas that are zoned to own a horse on your property. Places like in NORCO or OJAI! I want to teach near where I live so that I don't have to commute very far every day to get to work in the morning. So far the property prices in NORCO are more affordable than in OJAI but OJAI is an artist colony town full of art people! I would rather have the sexy wife who loves me dearly, the adopted kids, the various pets, the home, the 2 cars, one for me and one for my wife to use, and live far away from the westside of LA, than just be in LA by myself in an apartment and going to the places I love like the ethnic food resteraunts, art museums, art house movie theaters, and other fun things to be doing! Why not? Well I already did that lifestyle from July 2004 to January 2009 and it was really great but now I want stability and a family to be loved by and have around to take care of. If I stay in the high rent area of LA I could never afford the other things I found out about myself that I wanted really badly while I was unhappy living in San Diego at my parents house with no close by friends to hang out with at night, and while I was away at CSULB in the dorms last year and realized that I'm in my early 30's and I don't have the white picket fence American dream yet. The problem is LA is so great and awesome! I make interesting friends, meet interesting people who love art and movies, I pass by movie stars all the time, The women are almost all hot and many come from all over the globe and the united states to be discovered as a hollywood movie star. over 99.9% of them never make it to what they dreamed of becoming famous, but they help add to the exotic charming flavor of LA life. I think about that if I ever got this LA dream girl perfect 10 model girlfriend or wife would I stay in LA if she wanted to be close to her work and give up on my dreams of being able to afford the kids and animals I wanted for so long now? If all of my teachers salary goes for rent, food, gas money, paying back my student loans, would I still have the budget for things I enjoy like art museum shows and going to the art house movies? I feel that I can always retire to the westside of LA after I teach for many years, raise my kids who grow up and become adults and have the retirement money saved up to go to the movies all the time. If LA was more affordable I would have that as my first choice as a place to live and raise a family.
Well that is my dreams and goals for the future as of September 2011. I still want to get my dream teaching job at LA county high school for the arts, but realize that might never happen with deep budget cuts and high competition to teach at that school. As long as I can be an effective teacher and a good positive role model to my students it does not have to be at a school where the kids are all talented artists who will go off to art colleges when they graduate from the arts high school. I want to change and grow up to where I imagine myself, not stay the same person, doing the same routine in LA with a good,nice, but predictable life the next 15 years. I don't want to fall into youth culture where I don't mature more as I get older. I don't want to struggle to make ends meet every month barely squeezing by, I'm looking for stablity and companionship and bonding with more control of my lifestyle and things in my life.
If any of this sounds funny or strange to you maybe it is, but it is not a joke or a gag! This is really my thoughts and dreams written aloud. Yes, maybe a perfect 10 looking hot babe model might not want the same things I want in my life...but am I willing to give up more than 50% of what I talked about here, even if her face and sexy body is jaw dropping amazing? Obviously without the girl around I have no wife, adopted kids or the family. But if she hates dogs, cats, and miniature horses that is going to be a deal breaker for me! No matter how wealthy, or sexy she is! Other deal breakers where I would get out of a bad situation I will avoid is if she is unfaithful to me, if she is abusive and really treats me like dirt all the time or if she uses drugs.
I started on the road to try making a documentary film in 5 years time. I figure it will take me 4 or 5 years to get all of my footage. It would take me at least a year to edit it all together. It's a slow start but a side hobby as learning process art assignment. School and my ceramics sculpting comes first before the filmmaking.
I have always been a good collector and having my hobbies that I enjoy partaking in! The good thing is I can let go of or trade or barter many of the items or books I own and collected. The bad part is I still enjoy collecting new things and still acquire more than what I get rid of.
I want to learn more about horses first hand and not just what I read about in a library book on horses. They have various stables and horseback riding centers in the LA and Orange county area. They have theraputic riding programs for people with learning disabilies, among other problems or needs that I or others might face that riding or grooming horses is theraputic and can help me grow into a calmer happier person.
Like my personal goals 2010 page I still want to adopt kids, but have been thinking about it a lot more lately. Quite often in fact, to be honest! I like adopting cats and dogs that are 6 months old or older up to an older full grown adult and have found that choosing a pet that already has their personality and temperment has worked out well for me if the pet and I connect and become friends right away! If you adopt a kitten or a puppy you don't know if it will be very shy, really nice, very mean, or grouchy, or what personality it has yet and what it will grow up to become and act like as it matures and develops. I want to adopt babies under 1 years of age that will look like they will grow up to be very handsome looking and strong like Brad Pitt, Denzel Washington, Michael jordan, or Rob Lowe. If it's a girl I adopt I want her to be as pretty as Halle Berry or Cindy Crawford. The logic behind this is that if others think they are astonishing looking then they will have an easier life and easier time making friends and being popular because others are attracted to them and accepting of them and want to be around them. I don't want my kids to feel socially out of place like they don't fit in or have a hard time making close personal relationships easily with others especially the opposite sex. I myself am very outgoing and meet lots of people but close friends that are reliable and dates are harder for me to come by and find in my life. I know I really struggled with getting rejected by others, ignored, abused, harrassed, and picked on for much of my lifetime. I don't want my kids to be very vulnerable naive and sheltered but to have it easier than I did with their hot stuff looks opening the door for them. I have also been very amused at all the twins on campus that attend CSULB together! They are very nice people and I think twins are really cool! I want to adopt twins now! I want them to also be handsome or pretty if possible. I picked up a book I had about the siamese twins Cheng brothers from over 120 years ago in America. That got me thinking that if I could adopt a siamese twin that was in good health and and wasn't expected to die as a child I believe that I could be a good father and a good home to such a child that was up for adoption! I also want to adopt a midget, it doesn't matter if the midget is a boy or a girl or handsome or pretty. I would love all my adopted kids with great concern and care no matter if they were born with birth defects in life or if they were born great looking. Family is very important to me and what my main goal in life is right now and has been as a fantasy of mine since I was 14 or 15 years old. I do daydream about very pretty attractive girls but the marriage and kids and happy home life is the main part of the dream not just the sex. I guess I identify with wanting handsome and pretty kids that get to be treated the way I always wanted to be seen as desirable and chased after, even thought that never happens to me. The kids I want to adopt that were born siamese twins or a midget reflect how I feel like I was treated like an outcast and misfit as a tween and teenager in school, having been already treated poorly by others and by my peers I could help show lots of love, compassion and understanding and be an advocate for my kids if they had features that made them stand out and not fit in with others around them. I would not parade them around as a circus show to get attention for my own satisfaction, I would love them and raise them to be strong, good people, and follow their dreams no matter what obsticiles they face or how bad someone tries to treat them on their journey in life.
I don't plan on having these kids till I get married to miss right:who ever that will end up being?! I plan on having my pets first, my house property first, my teaching job first, a reliable car for regular daily travel and activities and a large minivan that can seat lots of people or could store my artwork to transport or carry a miniature horse in the backseat. I am looking to have a home with space for the pets and miniature horses and a large yard/backyard. I want to have a special room for storing all of my artbooks and a place to keep my sculptures in. To get a large enough property to have all of these things I don't think I could ever afford to be in the westside of LA, where I really enjoy life. In LA I enjoy the things that happen around me daily like the art house cinemas where cult movies are played and the famous film stars come to speak to the audience. On a teachers budget I don't think I can afford west LA and the lifestyle I enjoy about it. I decided I want to live in the outskirts of LA in more rural areas that are zoned to own a horse on your property. Places like in NORCO or OJAI! I want to teach near where I live so that I don't have to commute very far every day to get to work in the morning. So far the property prices in NORCO are more affordable than in OJAI but OJAI is an artist colony town full of art people! I would rather have the sexy wife who loves me dearly, the adopted kids, the various pets, the home, the 2 cars, one for me and one for my wife to use, and live far away from the westside of LA, than just be in LA by myself in an apartment and going to the places I love like the ethnic food resteraunts, art museums, art house movie theaters, and other fun things to be doing! Why not? Well I already did that lifestyle from July 2004 to January 2009 and it was really great but now I want stability and a family to be loved by and have around to take care of. If I stay in the high rent area of LA I could never afford the other things I found out about myself that I wanted really badly while I was unhappy living in San Diego at my parents house with no close by friends to hang out with at night, and while I was away at CSULB in the dorms last year and realized that I'm in my early 30's and I don't have the white picket fence American dream yet. The problem is LA is so great and awesome! I make interesting friends, meet interesting people who love art and movies, I pass by movie stars all the time, The women are almost all hot and many come from all over the globe and the united states to be discovered as a hollywood movie star. over 99.9% of them never make it to what they dreamed of becoming famous, but they help add to the exotic charming flavor of LA life. I think about that if I ever got this LA dream girl perfect 10 model girlfriend or wife would I stay in LA if she wanted to be close to her work and give up on my dreams of being able to afford the kids and animals I wanted for so long now? If all of my teachers salary goes for rent, food, gas money, paying back my student loans, would I still have the budget for things I enjoy like art museum shows and going to the art house movies? I feel that I can always retire to the westside of LA after I teach for many years, raise my kids who grow up and become adults and have the retirement money saved up to go to the movies all the time. If LA was more affordable I would have that as my first choice as a place to live and raise a family.
Well that is my dreams and goals for the future as of September 2011. I still want to get my dream teaching job at LA county high school for the arts, but realize that might never happen with deep budget cuts and high competition to teach at that school. As long as I can be an effective teacher and a good positive role model to my students it does not have to be at a school where the kids are all talented artists who will go off to art colleges when they graduate from the arts high school. I want to change and grow up to where I imagine myself, not stay the same person, doing the same routine in LA with a good,nice, but predictable life the next 15 years. I don't want to fall into youth culture where I don't mature more as I get older. I don't want to struggle to make ends meet every month barely squeezing by, I'm looking for stablity and companionship and bonding with more control of my lifestyle and things in my life.
If any of this sounds funny or strange to you maybe it is, but it is not a joke or a gag! This is really my thoughts and dreams written aloud. Yes, maybe a perfect 10 looking hot babe model might not want the same things I want in my life...but am I willing to give up more than 50% of what I talked about here, even if her face and sexy body is jaw dropping amazing? Obviously without the girl around I have no wife, adopted kids or the family. But if she hates dogs, cats, and miniature horses that is going to be a deal breaker for me! No matter how wealthy, or sexy she is! Other deal breakers where I would get out of a bad situation I will avoid is if she is unfaithful to me, if she is abusive and really treats me like dirt all the time or if she uses drugs.
